frustrated…
just when you thought you found your direction in life…
you realize…it is not fucking feasible!
that is so frustrating, really.
Just when I thought I wanted to make movies, documentaries and videos…in short: director, enrolling myself in a one year immersion film school would be highly impossible.
WHY?
I got one word for you:
MONEY.
You know how much it will cost me to enroll at the The International Academy of Film and Television in Cebu?
265,000 Pesos for the whole year!
That.fucking.sucks!
Why would I want to be a film director when I am studying International Politics right now? Does it have any relations?
YES!
Combining media and int’l politics is what I’m targeting to do. Media today is the most powerful tool of influence in the world and whatever media we have, it is shit.
Most of them are there for profit. Most of them misled the audience…
I want to make films such as Hotel Rwanda
I want to make documentaries such as those from I-witness
I want to make music videos like what Marie Jamora did for Urbandub…
But I’m getting frustrated…
How the hell am I going to earn 265,000 pesos?! It would take me 3-5 yrs before i could enroll myself! I want to start young! and I don’t wan’t to take the Short-term workshops because I want to learn every bit of it!
This is absolutely frustrating… I need money… anyone would want to give me financial grant?
I may not know the fundamentals of film making.
I may not have a single knowledge regarding the equipments
All i have is passion and my dream to propagate substantial messages through my works…
when will that be Enough?
sorry…my idealistic side is surfacing…
jevay \m/
